i cried at work today. a lot.

i guess you could say that when it rains, it pours when it comes to me and my crying habits. i don't cry often, but when i do, i find that i have a really hard time transitioning from red puffy eyes to something fake. i've grown up a lot since i started serving. it used to be that someone didn't like their gyro and i was a mess. i was a super sensitive kid. i'm not nearly as sensitive anymore, but i do want nothing but the best for them and satisfaction from them, people i'm serving.

so, i way-over-reacted, but it was a sort of domino effect of other issues with work that were all connected by a common thread. i wish i could've brushed it off my shoulders and moved on and not cared what the old war-vet-suspender-wearing man said or the complaints of the even older onion ring eating man. but, i didn't.

what was really cool about it though, is that two people who i know: both from work and the vineyard community, stopped their conversations with their lunchmate and took a few minutes to give me a squeeze and pray for me. it was really beautiful. in the midst of a little meltdown to have an extra huge dose of encouragement and just feel loved by my people.

and as i was driving home from work (my wonderful coworkers let me go first, so i can work on a paper) only a couple of blocks from my house there was an accident, fender-bendery, but the emergency vehicles weren't there yet, there was a lady (maybe one of the passengers or passerby's) taking a pulse of a man with his eyes closed in the drivers seat.

i'm always reminded when i have any sort of mess in my life that it could always be so much worse and being reminded of that helps me to be very thankful and embrace the people, opportunities and situations that surround me.

i saw some amazing shows this week: jonsi & sufjan. ahhhh. love.