treasure it and ponder

i've had so many beautiful moments in the past days, weeks and months. i'm looking forward to christmas break, like never before. last year, it was great also but i'm hopeful that this one will be the best yet; not because i have grandiose plans, but the exact opposite. i'm looking forward to hours where i have nothing to do, but think. i'm looking forward to some plan not going through and having unexpected extra-down time. i've seen, heard, smelled, loved and experienced such beauty that i will need much time to process it all. things i've been learning, questions that i have, better understanding of my desired spiritual life, to make lists of what and who i'm thankful for, to write- just for fun.

tonight, in dialogue with the roommates, i realize that maybe i dream small, because they're all coming true, rather, they're all happening. should i be content with that, or dream bigger?