rambling mind

are you ever just walking around, a bit detached, wondering if anybody else feels like they're just playing a mundane role in some indie movie? maybe it's the uprise in films about waitresses in the last few years, maybe it's the odd people i come in contact with or how i spend my weekends.

anyway, what's been on my mind and in conversations lately, is wrestling with the idea of what's worth work, what's worth fighting for, what's worth putting forth effort? ideally, good things that are meant to be, just happen and bad things, that aren't meant to be don't happen. but what about ideas that need time to mature and develop? what about relationships? where do you draw the line between choosing something and having something choose you?

i'm sitting here, at work, between shifts. preparing to study for my last exam at columbus state and also ready to make a margarita for the next customer that orders one. this has been a really great quarter, for the first time, i really enjoyed all of my classes. i'll miss the people at columbus state, they so crazy. i'll miss the eclectic mix of bumper stickers, anything from somali pride to vegetarian advocating or "my child is.." stickers. i'll miss laughing with strangers in the bathroom.

but hello osu, i'm going to attempt to take you seriously, really. to explore what i need to explore, to go from un-decided to decided, to give you an ungodly amount of money per year and to study.