tonight was one of them. i didn't get my favorite section, i didn't start out with the best tables ever, etc. but by the end of the night, i served some really wonderful people. one of whom, was a five year old, exactly five. it was her birthday. i wish i could remember her name, it was interesting, with a "s" and a "z", she was small and brown with far-eastern roots. after her birthday dinner, she and her friend stood between the doorway and the bar, listening to the live music and dancing. i wanted nothing more than to join them, in their five year old sways, so i did. it was lovely.
as i sprayed bleach on toilets and wiped down mirrors, i felt content. content in working hard, working well. i felt an indescribable joy and hope. pieces of wendell berry's mad farmer liberation front scrolled through my mind like a "to-do" list. love the quick profit, the annual raise, vacation with pay. want more. do things that can't compute. love the lord. ask questions. invest in the millenium. practice resurrection.
what does this mean?
i want to live in far off in a community. i want to love better. i want to be less selfish. i want to want good things. i want to learn. i want to work hard. i want to give all i can. i want to know how to rest. i want to experience god. i want to share everything. i want to know what it's like to have nothing. i want to make tomorrow better than today.
2 comments:
love it. love you.
was her name suzanne? ;) lovely girl. <3
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